Year of the Sleepwalk (2019)

(This album isn’t quite finished yet, but it’s getting close, and I’m impatient. I felt like it was about time all the instances of the album title that are sprinkled throughout a number of blog posts linked to something instead of just sitting there doing nothing. At some point a homemade documentary that follows the making of the album will appear here as well.)

This is the first solo album I’ve made since 2011’s GIFT FOR A SPIDER. It’s also the least solitary album I’ve ever released with my name on the spine.

I didn’t plan it that way.

My goal in the aftermath of GIFT FOR A SPIDER was to finish a massive, eons-in-the-making album called THE ANGLE OF BEST DISTANCE. I got off to a good start, finishing and sequencing the first two CDs of a projected four-disc set. I printed a bunch of inserts and assembled about a hundred copies of what I thought was the first half of the album. Then the magnitude of the thing started to overwhelm me, and I found myself losing confidence in my ability to pull all the disparate threads together.

I was also trying to wrap my head around turning thirty. I told myself it was only a number, but all the disconcerting questions I thought I found answers to when I was a teenager came screaming back at me, and they had some mean new friends backing them up. What was worse, this time around they’d neglected to brush their teeth. It wasn’t pretty.

The most disturbing thing was the way the unease spilled over into my music. Making music has always been my way of coping with dark and uncertain times. It’s given me a place to go when I don’t feel comfortable anywhere else. No matter what’s happening in my life, I’ve always found a way to spin it into something constructive and make music out of it.

Even that felt pointless now. After banging my head against the wall for a while, I pushed THE ANGLE OF BEST DISTANCE to the side, threw away the two CDs I thought were finished, left piles of unrelated songs I was writing unrecorded, and struggled to find the motivation or sense of purpose to do anything. The unexpected work I started getting recording other local artists around that time was the only thing that kept some of my musical muscles from starting to atrophy.

A thought struck me in early 2014. As much of a lone wolf as I’d become, some good friends had come into my orbit through music. Maybe collaborating with some of those friends in a new way would shock me out of the funk I was in. I didn’t feel great about the idea of being an energy vampire, but I was pretty desperate to get something going. Too much time spent not making music has never been good for me.

I put the feelers out on Facebook, asking if anyone was interested in being part of a large-scale creative experiment that hadn’t yet come into focus. The response I got was overwhelming.

Of course, when I tried following up on a more personal level, not one of the people who expressed an interest in doing something would talk to me. It was all hot air. But now I had an idea, and I was determined to follow it all the way down the rabbit hole.

A large part of my musical identity is wrapped up in the way I work. I produce and record myself in my home. Most of the time I play all the instruments and end up doing everything short of printing the booklets/inserts and fabricating the plastic used to make the CD jewel cases. Not having to pay someone else for studio time and not having to rely on other musicians to show up are two of the main reasons I’ve been able to make so much music without stopping to take a breath very often.

What if I kept that identity intact but…messed with it a little? What if I invited other wolves into the cave and allowed them to add their own accents and impressions?

One of my initial ideas was to put a band together. If I’d gone down that road, I think I would still be trying to get everyone to show up for the first recording session. It became clear very early on that working with people one-on-one was the only way I was going to get what I wanted.

If I was really going to go through with this, I decided there would be three stipulations. Anyone I invited to be a part of the project had to be based in Windsor. If they were a musician, they had to play an instrument I either couldn’t play myself or didn’t have access to. And if they were a singer, they had to have a voice I found unique and emotionally compelling.

You’d think that would have thinned out the pool quite a bit. I still ended up reaching out to about a hundred different singers and musicians. Some I knew. Some I’d never spoken to before.

There were a number of false starts and near-misses on the way to finding the people who would become part of this thing called YEAR OF THE SLEEPWALK. There were a lot of firsts for me along the way as well. I wrote string and horn parts — a fun challenge when your music theory knowledge is almost nonexistent — and found real string and horn players to bring them to life. I wrote songs with specific singers in mind and then “pitched” those songs to the people I wanted to sing them. I wrote musical dialogues meant for more than one lead vocalist. And I somehow convinced a group of people to stand around a microphone while shouting about horses galloping and trotting.

It was exciting, frustrating, unpredictable, a profound test of my patience and resilience, and inspiring beyond measure.

Well, that’s not quite true. There is one way to measure the inspiration all of this stirred up in me: I wrote well over two hundred songs for this specific album.

(You can imagine the fun I had when it came time to try and shave all of that down to some sort of coherent musical statement.)

The visual art came into the picture when I started thinking about album packaging. I knew I would never be able to make an album quite like this again even if I wanted to, and I thought it might be worthwhile to try doing something more involving and ambitious with the lyric booklet.

I reached out to a number of local artists and asked if they would be interested in each creating a single piece of art inspired by the music. I couldn’t share the whole album with them (it wasn’t finished yet), but I could at least offer them a pretty healthy handful of music. What they created would be up to them. It could be a direct response to a specific song. It could be something that had nothing to do with any of the imagery in my lyrics. It could be anything at all, as long as the music catalyzed the image in some way.

This was one of the most thrilling parts of making the album, because it was out of my hands. I had no idea what I was going to get from any of the dozen visual artists who got involved. Every image they sent my way was a great surprise.

I hope the end result is an album that forces you to sit down and really explore all the sounds, words, and images it has to offer, the way we used to experience music in days of old, before a lot of us started treating it as little more than the audio equivalent of wallpaper.

I don’t know if the sum total of all of this work is the best album I’ve ever made. I don’t think I’m the sort of artist who has a “best” album in them. I’ve been making music almost as long as I’ve been alive, and I’ve always viewed my albums as little more than snapshots of who and where I am at a given point in time. No snapshot on its own is going to tell you the whole story, but line them all up next to one another and you’ve got an audio photo album that spans decades.

I do know this is one of the more panoramic snapshots in that proverbial photo album, and in some ways it’s one of my proudest achievements. It should be — I went through hell to make it. I think the songs are some of the best I’ve written. I’m gobsmacked by the performances I was able to capture from a host of talented singers and musicians. I think the artwork has allowed me to give the music a rich, varied visual life. And I learned a lot about myself as an artist and a producer along the way.

You’ll notice I haven’t touched on any of the individual songs the way I normally do on these album pages. That’s because there’s a video component to the album that covers a lot of that ground. I’ll post it here as soon as it’s finished and edited.

A bit about that:

As fastidious as I’ve been about making audio recordings over the years, it’s a serious regret of mine that so little of my musical life has been documented in any visual form. There was some great candid footage shot by one band member or another in my teenage days, but most of it’s lost now. I got my hands on a MiniDV Camcorder in 2003, but every time I thought I was going to dig in and document myself creating an album or working through a change in musical direction I would talk myself out of it, convinced whatever I filmed would be boring beyond belief.

The moment this album started picking up some momentum, I decided I wasn’t going to make that mistake again. I started setting up a video camera or two — with the explicit permission of each performer — at the beginning of some of the recording sessions, and I filmed myself talking to the camera and recorded voiceover material to fill in some of the blanks. It was important to me that I document not only the musical gifts of everyone onscreen, but some sense of their personalities and how we interacted. I also wanted to provide some context for everything. I was able to dig up quite a bit of archival material, so you get a lot of background information that may or may not be of interest.

I’m not a professional filmmaker. I hesitate to call the film a true documentary. I hesitate to call it a film at all. It’s more of a very long, rambling, quirky video essay. For the most part my video equipment is nothing special, but when it comes to music I’ve always been a firm believer in working with whatever tools you have available. I thought it was about time I carried that attitude over to the camera, making do with what I had instead of putting pressure on myself to film something brilliant.

While the end result won’t play at any film festivals, I think it tells you a lot about who I am, what I do, and why I do it the way I do. And in a way, I think the roughness of some of the footage suits the way I work. I’ve never been interested in chasing perfection. I’ve always believed mistakes and accidents are where some of the best stuff lives. Those are the moments in which we’re the truest versions of ourselves.

All of this could have been finished a lot sooner if I hadn’t taken so much time away from my own music to record other Windsor songwriters over the last few years, and if some people hadn’t forced me to chase them in order to get them over here. But one of the benefits of a long-range process like this is the amount of time everything is given to settle into itself. A lot of thought went into things like arrangement and sequencing. Some of my favourite songs were written late in the game, and they wouldn’t be on the album at all if it hadn’t taken so long to hit the finish line.

Between writing, arranging, producing, recording, mixing, and mastering all the songs, curating the supporting cast, writing parts for other musicians and setting up structured frameworks for them to improvise inside of, playing many instruments myself, and finding a way to fit some pretty textured arrangements onto the sixteen tracks available on my mixer, it was an immense amount of work. A staggering amount of people ignored me, blew me off, flaked out on me, lied to me, and rejected me when I tried to involve them in the album.

In the end, I kind of gutted it out through stubbornness and determination. You couldn’t pay me to relive the experience and do it all again, and I’ll never make another album involving anywhere near this amount of people, but I’m glad I did it this one time.

At least I think I am…


CD 1

Don’t Let the Preamble Ramble
Losing Light
Embedded Ignitable/So Happy
Later Than Soon
Lullaby for Unborn Child
Archaic Units of Measurement
Dew Point
Do Not Don’t Do That
First Dialogue
Cathedral in Ruins
Alien Eggs
Calcium Oxalate
Boy See
Gold Smoke
Lead Bullets
A Constellation of Conditions
The Inverse Is Also True
Nothing to See, Nothing to Say
When the Bottom Drops out
Melted Hearts
Buying Time at the End of the World
Sweet Hot Hell

CD 2

These Psychic Pants Are Slimming
Freedom as a Child (Five Cellos)
Your Dishrag Soul
Just Another Face in the Clouds
Oxygen Damage Due to Lack of Brain
Cure for the Uncommon Cold
A Will to Love
Mystery and Miracles
Neon Roulette
Saskatoon Pastor
Hollow Mast
Second Dialogue
Your Mother and I
This Is an Overwrought Love Song
I Don’t Want to Get over Getting over You
Love Among the Cannibals
Maybe Everything That Mattered Didn’t Matter at All
We Came Back as the Things We Were Before
Wherever the Lord May Be
The Stillness of Us
A Star Is Stillborn
The Possibilities Are Quite Possibly Possible
We Were Wolves

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